In a pensive mode today because I realized I've ceased sharing all my emotions with anyone. And even if I tell anyone I'm not feeling good, it'll take me just 10 minutes later to tell them I'm fine. When I'm not. It's so tough because they won't understand, and they have their own matters to deal with...
I lost people that I love, and gained people I'm starting to love. But….. What/how should I feel? It's so painful watching people leave. But I never ever try to hold them back. I don't even know why. I mean, I'm genuinely happy when I'm out laughing and joking around but when I'm home at night, that's when my nightmares come creeping up on me and I start feelings things I don't want to feel…
Oh God why is it so difficult to pen everything down now that I've decided to start. I will feel better soon. I need to. xx
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